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Name: Chrissy
Birthday: April 14
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HER FRIENDS

In no particular order. <3


"My Jude Fanatic."



"My ShirlGirl."



"My Beach Buddy."



"My SVU Slut."



"My OC addict"



"My lovah."



"My AFaholic"


HER SONG
Ashlee Simpson ; "Beautifully Broken"


It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday I didn't know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by

But I will try
I will try
Wipe the tears from my eyes

I'm beautifully broken
And I don't mind if you know it
I'm beautifully broken
And I don't care if I show it

Everyday is a new day
I'm reminded of my past
Everytime there's another storm
I know that it won't last
Every moment I'm filled with hope
'cause I get another chance

But I will try
I will try
Got nothing
Left to hide

I'm beautifully broken
And I don't mind if you know it
I'm beautifully broken
And I don't care if I show it

Without the highs and the lows
Where would we go
Where would we go

I'm beautifully broken
And I don't mind if you know it
I'm beautifully broken
And I don't care if I show it




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Friends only. Friends cut. [17 Sep 2004|04:21pm]
[ mood | content ]


Hey. It's been awhile since the last time I updated this journal, but oh well. This journal is going FRIENDS ONLY. What does that exactly does that mean for you, though? I'm cutting my friends list down to those that I actually want to read this and trust to read this. I am going to talk about people. I am going to talk about personal things in here. Oh well. Get over it if you get cut. It does not mean I hate you, dislike you, hold any sort of grudge against you or anything. It simply means that I do not want other people knowing about personal items that I will talk about in here.

Also, if you do happen to be allowed to stay on my friend's list even after the cut, that doesn't mean I won't cut you later. If I find out anybody has been spreading stuff that I write in here to other people, you will be cut. Even if I just suspect you are or will, I'll immediately cut you. Don't think I'm some sort of nazi or anything, I just don't want certain people reading this. I'm not being a bitch. I'm being nice. I will be a bitch when people I don't want reading this shit do. I'm not adding any people to my list that I don't know exactly who they are because I'm not stupid. I know people I don't want reading this can make a fake user name and ask to be added just to read it.

Why am I making this a friends only journal, anyway? It's simple. There's people reading this or people that could potentially read this that I don't want to read it. I'm not going to complain about that, either. I'm just going to do something about it. If it still happens after I do something about it? Hell yeah, I will complain. Why? The people I'm selecting to stay on this list are people I fully trust, and knowing that people I don't want reading this are means that I can't trust those people like I thought I could. There is also a few people that I know can't tell anyone what I say because they don't even know them or I just love reading THEIR journal, so they're staying.

So if your name is on the following list, you are REMAINING a friend. I would list the people I'm cutting, but there's more of those than not, so yeah. Again, don't take this personally. I still love you. Maybe. ;D (Note: The following exludes communities. This is simply for users only.)

__comet, conceals, heart_shape_box, izia_xo, klcore, lost_inadam, rolla00hockey, satinribbon, shot_down_love, xox_shans_xox, xtinyhunnix

If your name is not in the list above, remove me. I just deleted (roughly) around thirty-something people from my friends list, so don't think you're alone either.

I doubt I'll add anymore people to this list. I might, though... so you might as well try if you want to. If you think you were deleted unfairly, either IM me on cdawgxox or leave me a comment and we'll see. ;D

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i replay it over and over again. [08 Sep 2004|09:25pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]


Today was a grand day. I didn't bring any books to first period, but that was okay. The time he gave us for homework I just talked and I finished it all after school. It wasn't that bad. Second period we just watched presentations, which we will probably do tomorrow as well, haha. We had a big class discussion in Newspaper, which I loved. It was a lot of fun. <3 that class. I got assigned my new article. It was originally supposed to be about the marching band competition, and I requested to change that, lmao. I am now writing about new graduation requirements. French was all right. It wasn't anything too exciting. English was okay, too. We did pros and cons of our topics, and mine seems fairly good, lol. Humanities was funny, man. We had good times in there watching that fucked up movie. Physics was HILARIOUS, duh. We never have dull moments in that class.

I love Nelly's new albums. They are both amazing. I am listening to Suit right now, and I am even jamming to these, lmfao. That is how insanely awesome I am. Although, it is the current single from this album, I love "My Place (feat. Jaheim)."

my place (feat. jaheim) -- nellyCollapse )

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could you love me? [07 Sep 2004|08:27pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]


I have not written much in this thing lately. I know this will sound lame, but it feels like my life is just this empty page waiting to be written on. We, as teenagers, look at the world around us and worry about growing up and getting old and dying -- at least I know I do -- but we have yet to realize that we have so many wonderful years ahead of us. I feel like I should be embracing this life more than I have been, and that is my inner goal. Today I was having a horrible day, and I kept taking it out on people and bitching, but then I started thinking, "how is my day going to get better if I just continue to make it negative?" so I started forcing myself to cheer up, and guess what happened? My day progressively brightened (after school was out, of course). Haha.

I got my hair lightened and darkened and I got it cut. Some layers I have are super short (as in, to my ears), but there wasn't much length cut off the overall part of my hair. I'm not sure if I like it darker underneath. We will have to see, haha.

This is such a horrible entry. I'm getting so frustrated with myself because I can't write as well as I used to be able to. I need to start doing writing exercises or something. Lawd. Haha. I'm going to find an outfit for tomorrow and then try writing more. Later.


xoxo, chrissy

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reach for the stars. [04 Sep 2004|12:06pm]
[ mood | tired ]


SHANS6072: I FLIPPIN' LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!:-D

Shannon is the best. ;D


xoxo, chrissy

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it's tearing up my heart!!!! [30 Aug 2004|12:48am]
[ mood | excited ]


I just need to clarify that I have the most amazing boyfriend in the entire world. This weekend was a complete surprise to me. It was also an amazing surprise. Thank you to everyone involved, lmfao. I don't know who all knows, but apparently, it's a great deal of you. He's just being the best guy the past two days... I don't know... all I have to say is that I love him to death. He's amazing, and I'm so thankful I have him. He's the best!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday to Kai Lynn. <333

Shannon, thank you x 39439439.

Stephanie, thank you x 3498390483904839048 too!!!

xoxox, chrissy

I love Tyler again.

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so kiss me. ;D [29 Aug 2004|12:31pm]
[ mood | happy ]


Okay, so I thought I'd update before I leave to go to Stephanie's house in a half-hour, lmao. Lordy. Please... if your name isn't mentioned below, don't take it seriously, alright? I love EVERYONE.

Tyler is honestly my best friend, lol. I just love how he gets me and he's a guy. When we're together, I can be fooling everyone with my smile, and he'll look at me once and just say, "What's wrong?" like he can read my mind or something. We just get each other. I remember Chelly telling me how annoying it was that he and I talked so much a like and that we acted the exact same, lmao. A lot of people have admitted that to me recently. I think it's funny, lmao. We rock. He's been my "rock" for so long. When I needed somebody, he was/is there. Ahhh. I love us, lmao. I honestly like how we bitch at each other for stupid things when we're together (I'm not talking about fights, I'm talking about complaining [which is mostly me, but he tends to sometimes too, lmao] to each other about ridiculous things) and we'll 'bicker' for a minute, and then we're all 'lovey-dovey' the next minute, lmao. I think it's hilarious. Good times.

Stephanie and I are so freaking close lately that it's amazing. She's the only girl that I trust with every little bit of information. I mean, I don't know. She and I are so much alike, lol. She and I bitch like crazy at each other one minute and the next we're laughing hysterically, totally forgetting about what just happened. It's like we have that sisterly bond, yanno? I don't know about her, but I love our friendship, lol. I love how she gets me. She actually cares about my feelings, haha. She just doesn't ditch me for stupid people and if our friendship was deteriorating (whoa, totally spelled wrong), she'd actually try to help it. -ahem- Haha. I LOVE MY FANNY.

Crystal is my girl, fa' sho'. LMAO. We just totally understand each other. It's like she and I are the same person, no joke. I remember when people would talk to her, they'd think that it was just me talking on two different screen names because we sound so much alike, haha. We like (almost) all the same things and everything. She's just a pimp... but I'm her pimp, of course, lmao. ;P She and I can fight so much (ahem, like blocking each other when we were young and immature, lmfao). Wowzas. I love my Dee!!

Okay, I was going to write a lot more people than this, but I don't really have the time right now, lmao. But an honorable mention goes to: SHANNON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, Kai Lynn, and Heather. THANKS. Peace out, hahah.

-word-

xoxo, chrissy

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i will not let you go. [28 Aug 2004|02:37pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]


</td></td></td></td></td></td>
About Yourself
What is your full name::Christina Jane McAteer
How old are you::16
When were you born::April 14th, 1988
Where were you born::Ridgewood, NJ
What color eyes do you have::Blue
And the color of your hair?:Blonde
How tall are you::5'6"
Weight::110 the last time I checked, but according to everyone else I've lost even more weight. I HATE THIS CRAP.
Size Shoe::
Size pants::0 (Yeah, I KNOW. Another fucking pant size. What the hell is wrong with me?!)
What school do you go to::Eastern High School
What grade::11
What city do you live in::Louisville
State?::Kentucky
Do you have any siblings?:Yeah
If so how many::3
boy.... girl.... ?:2 brothers, 1 sister
Roughly count how many cousins you have::25 or something? I think maybe a little more. I'm not sure.
Where is the farthest you've ever traveled::California
Where is the farthest relative you have::Anyone in NJ.
Which of your friends lives the farthest and where::Crystal. CT.
Describe yourself in one word::Chrissy
Let's see your favorites:
Color::Pink, Black, Gold, Blue, Red... LMAO.
season::Spring
drink::Water
class::Newspaper
sport::Dance, I suppose.
movie::I have NO idea, lmfao. SOOO MANY.
food::I love a lot of food. NYC pizza is amazing, though.
state::New York or California
place::NYC
thing in your room::My bed. Everyone that's in my room lately just goes immediately to my bed and talks about how nice it is then they take naps, lmfao.
relative::I don't have a favorite.
animal::I love 'em all.
time of the day::4:20... LMAO. So just kidding, seriously. Night time.
thing to do::Be iwith Tyler / friends. ;X
song::Undiscovered
~~~About your friends~~~
Who would you say you're closest to::Tyler and Stephanie and Crystal and the Moelichs and Shannon and Heather and Kai Lynn
Knew the longest::Moelichs
Smartest::Cameron
funniest::ALL of us.
most friendly::Stephanie.
most outgoing::All of us.
happiest::Nobody's happy all the time, lmao.
saddest::Not sure.
most unsmart lol::Not sure
newest friend::This freshman boy named Spencer and the other one Tyler that I met last night!!
weirdest::All of them.
one you can't stand::LMAO. Some people know.
farthest away (i know i asked this already):Then read above.
most creative::Stephanie
GUY friend you like the most::Tyler
funnest::Most fun* and all of them.
most trustworthy::All of my best friends.
can't keep secrets well::Har har. I don't need to mention their names.
most talkative::Stephanie. OMFG her and the questions... LMFAO. I gotta love her though. <3 "So Chrissy... WHAT WHERE WHEN WHY HOW?!" HAHAHAHA.
one you talk to the most::Stephanie probably and Shannon
one you hang out with the most::Stephanie and Shannon
*****Best subject every1 wants to know about: BOYS!!!
do you have a boyfriend::Yessiree.
if yes what's his name::Tyler
if no, do u have a crush::N/A
if yes: what's his name:N/A
(boyfriend or crush) where did u first meet him::Online after Cameron gave him my s/n.
favorite thing about him::Everything.
how long have u liked/gone out with him::10½ months
guys in general: what's your favorite thing about them:Their cologne, lmfao. Last night, Spencer had on ADIDAS and I was like, (@*$(# I need to buy Tyler some of that now, lmfao.
What do you honestly see first in a guy looks or personality:How can I see a personality first? I'd be lying if I said that.
what was the youngest you've ever had a guy like you::What do you mean? How old was I or how old was the guy? 5 for me (this kid Matthew was like in love with me, lmfao) and the guy was 5 too!
when was your first crush::On a kid named Tyler Stabor in 2nd grade!!
first boyfriend::Nick in 3rd grade
How many serious boyfriends have u had:Tyler's my only extremely serious boyfriend, haha. Like the only one that I've loved, haha. Which loving = serious to me.
Here are some randoms, lol.
What is on your favorite pair of socks::These ones that I loser. ;(
whats your favorite snack::Spaghettios
Favorite channel::MTV or E! or VH1 or Disney or
how many pairs of jeans do you have::30, lmfao. I should be shot.
how many shoes... everyone loves shoes!::I don't know. 20 something maybe? Not that many.
which one do you like the most:JEANS. OMFG. Everyone knows I love jeans, lmfao.
favorite brand of water:Aquafina
which ice cream flavor do you think is the best::Vanilla
what about the brand::Doesn't matter.
where do you like to eat the best::O'Charlies
longest you've ever stayed awake:24+ hours
which friend comes and sleeps over most often:Hm. Tyler did when he was in KY still, lmao. Um... not sure, actually.
who's house do you go to the most (friend wise that is):Stephanie or Shannon's lately, lmao.
favorite thing to do in the summer:Sleep in.
favorite thing to do in winter:PLAY IN THE SNOW.
do you have a website:Nah.
do you like flowers:Yeaaaaah.
what's your favorite clothing brand:I don't do brands, haha.
shoe brand:ADIDAS
END OF SURVEY!!!
did u like this survey::It was alright.
wut time did u end it:2:35 PM.
did it make u less bored:Kind of.
did it make you happy!?:Nah. I wasn't sad to begin with.
are you glad it's over:Yeah.
are you bored now that it's over:Nah.
what are you gonna do about it:Nothing.
then go do it:Okay.
bye:
buh bye!: Bye.
GO ALREADY!: Okay.

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let go of yesterday. <3 hilary duff. [28 Aug 2004|02:18pm]
[ mood | crazy ]


</td>
What's his name?:Tyler
How old is he?:19
When's his birthday?:November 20th
How long have you been together?:10½ months
How did you meet?:He IMed me online once after I met Cameron.
Where was your first kiss?:At the Homecoming dance last year!
What do you like about him?:Everything. ;D
Is there anything you don't like about him?:When he lies to me.
If you were to give him an award for something what would it be?:For being the one person who can ALWAYS make me smile.
How tall is he?:6'0-6'1ish?
About how much does he weigh?:Not sure. He won't tell me. I don't know if I ever really asked, either, lmao.
What color is his hair?:Light brown.
How long is his hair?:Well, it was a normal guy length before but now it's buzzed... I suppose. I'm not in the Army, so I haven't seen him, sadly.
What color are his eyes?:Blue
Does he have any tattoos or piercings?:He has his ears pierced.
What's the sweetest thing he's ever done for you?:When he skipped a party and watched MKA movies with me and just talked with me and while I had make-up streaking my face, told me I was beautiful anyway. ;D
Do you think your relationship will last forever?:I don't know... but to be honest, it'd be kind of nice. He's the only person I could stand that long, lmao.
Have you talked about marriage/kids?:Like, not seriously or anything...
Would/Do you live with him?:No I don't. I would when I'm older, sure.
Have you met his family?:Yeah. Well, his immediate family + his grandma and aunt.
What is his family like?:They're cute!! Haha.
Has he met your family?:Yeah. He practically lived with us for awhile, lmao. He IS family at our house.
Does your family like him?:Yeah, they love him... they just dislike things he does to me sometimes... but my family loves him to death.
What 5 words best describe him?:MYBESTFRIEND, beautiful, mybaby, mister, amazing
What are atleast 3 of his favorite things?:CARS, music, movies... I hope I got that right. LMAO.
Complete each statement
I love it when he::holds me.
When we're apart I::miss him terribly.
I can't stand the thought of::being without him.
I'm really hoping that::we last a long time.
I'd never::cheat on him.
With him I'm always::happy.
The greatest gift I've ever given him was::something.
The greatest gift he's ever given me was::him. ;D
I'll never be able to forget the time::any time we've spent together.
I just want him to know::that I love him and I'm SO proud of him.

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dANGEROUS. SCANdALOUS. [28 Aug 2004|02:09pm]
[ mood | bored ]


Natural high --

primer amor x: HEY GIRL!!!! I LOVE YOU!
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Auto response from C dAWG xOx: Hey guys! IM me on chrissy5404. ;D

xoxo, chrissy
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primer amor x: that's all i wanted to say ;D

YAAAAY! ;D lmao. I'm a loser.

xoxo, chrissy

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hOOtAZ. [26 Aug 2004|11:30pm]
[ mood | tired ]


Dude, I'm famous. Look at Shannon's away message:

Auto response from SHANS6072: C dAWG xOx (12:45:56 AM): WE LOST OUR HOOTERS VIRGINITY. HELL F-IN YEAH.

LMAO. I'm cool.

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@ pLAYMAtE Of tHE YEAR! <3 [26 Aug 2004|10:04pm]
[ mood | happy ]


LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Full Name: Christina Jane McAteer
Birth date: April 14th, 1988
Birth place: Ridgewood, New Jersey
Current Location: Louisville, Kentucky
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Blonde
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Aries

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: Irish, Polish, British, German
Shoes you wore today: AF flip flops, ADIDAS white superstars
Your weakness(es): Tyler, jeans, accessories
Your fears: Heights, failure, death, losing people you love

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your most overused phrase on AIM: lmao (especially when I'm not laughing, haha)
Your thoughts first waking up: "It really cannot be time to wake up already..."
Your best physical feature: I don't think I really have any, lmao.
Your bedtime: I don't have bed time, but I usually crash around midnight now.

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: Sprite
McDonald's or Burger King: Both
Single or group dates: This sounds so unbelievably cheesy, but to be honest, as long as I'm with Tyler, I don't really care.
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate to taste, vanilla to smell.
Cappuccino or coffee: Neither

LAYER FOUR: DO YOU
Smoke: Yuck, no.
Drink: Nope.
Cuss: Fuck yeah. Haha, I kill myself.
Single: "Do you single?" Riiight. But if it's asking am I single, then nope!
Have a crush(es): Only on Tyler...
Like(d) middle school: No way.
Want to get married: Yeah.
Believe in yourself: Most of the time, yes.
Get motion sickness: Occasionally.
Think you're attractive: Not sure. It depends. Around Tyler I do because he always succeeds in raising my self-esteem, and i do around Stephanie and stuff because she always raises it... but other than that, not really. Well, yeah, actually... when I walk down Bardstown RD with my girls, LMFAO. Or when guys honk at me or call something out I do... but I don't know.
Think you're a health freak: Obviously not.

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: Nope.
Done a drug: Nope.
Gone on a date: Yeah.
Gone to the mall: Yeah.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Over a period time, not at once, sure.
Eaten sushi: Nope.
Been dumped: Yeah.

LAYER SEVEN: EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yeah
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nah.
Been caught "doing something": Yeah.
Been called a tease: Yeah.
Shoplifted: Nope.

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be married: Late 20s. Like 25-30. It just depends!
Numbers of Children: 2-3
What country would you most like to visit: France!!

LAYER NINE: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of piercings: Eight
Number of tattoos: None
Number of scars on my body: A few.

Four things you'd eat on the last day of your life:
O1. Pizza
O2. Chinese food
O3. Japanese food
O4. Italian food

four causes that you would donate to if you won the lottery:
O1. Animal Rights
O2. Cure for Cancer
O3. Make a Wish
O4. AIDS

seven things that never fail to cheer me up:
O1. Tyler<3
O2. Stephanie
O3. Shannon
O4. Magazines
O5. Writing
O6. Making LJ layouts (lmfao)
O7. Laughing

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I Am ... [26 Aug 2004|04:22pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Liberal
Where do you fall on the liberal - conservative political spectrum? (United States)

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% now the weight of the world feels like nothing ##— [24 Aug 2004|07:06am]
[ mood | sleepy ]


Ew. It's 7am and I could barely wake up this morning, lmao. Joey (Z) called me last night at, like, 11:40 last night and we talked for about an hour and fifteen minutes or an hour and a half on the phone (not sure how long), lmao. It was the most random conversation ever, man. He was cracking me up! HAHA.

I'm so tired beyond belief that it's amazing, haha. :( I wish that I could get sleep, but no. I can't. Who knows about what the hell today is going to be like at school. I'll probably kill myself from exhaustion. Haha. Tear. Okay, well, yeah. I need to go because I need to go to school. ;D


xoxo, chrissy

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... i'm here without you, baby ... ` * [23 Aug 2004|09:51pm]
[ mood | lonely ]


Let's just say this: It is Kai Lynn and me right now and Cameron and Stephanie are in my closet ... alone ... and we don't even want to know any more, lmfao. Hahaha. Funny times.

Well, in homeroom, we just talked and Mr. Johnson made me his little bitch and I had to alphabetize all of these stupid forms and then he freaking made me take it all the way to student services. LMAO. First period was alright. It wasn't anything too special. I talked to Tyler (Wagner) and this kid that I don't remember his name and they made me laugh. Then I told Tony about Cameron's little pedicure and he started cracking up, lmao. Funny times.

Second period was nothing too exciting either. Corey asked for my number. Weird. He's a cool kid though. Third period was hilarious as always. It's newspaper. James (Lee) and Emo had to tell the story of why they were leaving school early to go to court. What losers, lmao. Fourth period was hilarious. We told Ms. Croket that Cameron was Stephanie's obsessive stalker serial killer boyfriend and that she wanted to break up with him but he said he'd kill her. LMAO. Cam went >=o on us with that one, but he was kidding, lmfao. Fifth period was alright. We just listened to a bunch of presentations and such.

Sixth period was the same as always. Haha. We talked about the paintings that were stolen and Buddy was a smart ass as always, lmao. Seventh period was quite amusing. Mr. Cox asked Thomas these questions, like, "What does DNA stand for?" or "What kind rock cools to form the rock?" or something of the sort, and two others... and he had no idea what the answers were. He finally got one and that was what material can you see through but not completely make out the figures on the other side. And the answer was translucent. Woo. Haha.

Stephanie and Kai Lynn were coming home with me but then there was no letter for me to be sad about quite yet so then we went to Stephanie's house. We ordered some pizza and cheese sticks and ate them all. I had 1½ pieces plus like 2 bread sticks and i felt like such a fat ass. Ewww. Then Jon called me and asked if they could go swimming, and I was like, wtf. But we went anyway, lmao. Kai Lynn and I did makeovers, LMFAO. Then it ended up just being Cameron, Steph, Kai Lynn, and me and we watched The Hot Chick, which was hilarious like always. Ashlee Simpson looks so pretty in it! Anyway, yeah. So basically the first part of this entry is what happened next, HAHA.

Okay, another anonymous shout-out to a whole group of people: I will date whoever the hell I damn please. ;D If I feel that I really want to be with Tyler, regardless of the bullshit that he's pulled on me (which I will state here and now -- if it happens again, I'm gone) I will be with Tyler, okay? It's not really your business to be giving me shit over it. I love and care about you all, and I don't mind if you nicely say it to me and talk about it with concern... but when you throw shit in my face and just bitch about it, it flat out pisses me off. I'm with him for a reason. If I didn't want to be, I wouldn't. No, no matter how much you all beg me, I will not cheat on him. Don't even bother trying to convince me (especially saying, "he did it. you should too."), lol. If you've been nice to me about it and talked to me with actual kindess and such, thank you. This does not apply to you. If you are the ones bitching at me and yelling at me for it, fuck off until you get enough sense to understand it's my life. ;D (I'm not unappreciative. I am flattered so many people care about me that much. I just... don't like your all's approach.)

Andddd... thank you, Tyler, for posting that. It seriously made me feel so much better. Today I was having the funniest day EVER. I was hyper all day, but when it came time for me to go home and (I thought at least) read the letter, I got so depressed, lmao. The letter didn't even come, so I was even more nervous. But I'm glad that you said that at least... it made me feel better, haha. Every one (Cameron, Stephanie, Kai Lynn, James P., Jon, Jesus, Wes, and this one girl) was here, and I was just like, "YAY!!" Hahaha. You made my day better. Go you. love you!

Oh, and for other people bugging me about my weight... I'M NOT BULEMIC. LORD. Stop telling people I am. =[

I didn't get chinese food today. I was so depressed, I'm serious. I was so pumped for it all day, and then I got shot down. :( Lameness to the maximum.

DON'T COUNT ON ME 'CAUSE I'M NOT LISTENING. hahahaha.

I want to make this long and full of random crap that I'm thinking. It will.

I'm having a lot of trouble breathing. Le sigh. My heart hurts a lot lately. Gosh. Somebody shoot me, lmao. I have to constantly take deep breaths and crap. It sucks. I want homecoming to come. Lmao. Wow, that's not for another month and a half. I need a life, haha. I don't even have a date and I doubt I'll go with one. It wouldn't be the same, lol. Eeek.

I like how I was crashing all freaking day and now I am hyper as hell. OHHHH lord, I freaking have so many stories to tell Tyler. I freaking hate this. No joke. I used to have 9348390 stories to tell him a day. Now I have 34034908394x infinity to tell him. LMAO. I love bugging him. He likes it. Even if he doesn't, he pretends to. LMAO.

Cameron and Stephanie and Kai Lynn called me a freak today because I was talking about bad things. :( Like sexually bad things, lmfao. HAHAHAHAH. I need help mentally big time. I went insane at lunch, man.

I was yelling at Casey jokingly. HAHA. Hilarious times. Kai Lynn was in my lunch for today because that slut had ISAP. HAHAH. Funny times. Then Shannon and I threw a "WAKE UP, JESSICA!!!!!!!!!" party because she was tired. I think it worked. Jessica would never admit that though.

I have orientation tomorrow. :( Tear.

When we danced I held her tight. Then I walked her home that night and all the stars were shining bright and then I kissed her. And each time I saw her I couldn't wait to see her again. I wanted to let her know I was more than a friend. I didn't know just what to do. So I wished her an I Love You and she said she loved me too. (I totally messed that one up, I think. Who knows. Who cares.) And then I kissed her. I kissed her in a way I never kissed a girl before. HAHA. HOW CUTE. WHAT A CUTE SONG. AWWW. Then I asked her to be my wife and to always be right by my side. I felt so happy that I almost cried, and then I kissed her. <333333333333333333333333333333333

Beach Boys rock.

A HUNDRED DAYS HAVE MADE ME OLDER SINCE THE LAST TIME I SAW YOUR PRETTY FAAAACCE. A THOUSAND LIFES HAVE MADE ME COLDER AND I DON'T THINK THAT I CAN LOOK AT THIS THE SAMEEEE. AND ALL THE MILES THAT SEPARATE DISAPPEAR NOW WHEN I'M DREAMING OF YOUR FACE. I'M HERE WITHOUT YOU BABY, BUT YOU'RE STILL ON MY LONELY MIND. I THINK ABOUT YOU BABY AND I DREAM ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME. I'M HERE WITHOUT YOU BABY. BUT YOU'RE STILL WITH ME IN MY DREAMS. AND TONIGHT IT'S ONLY YOU AND MEEEEE. THE MILES JUST KEEP ROLLING AS THE PEOPLE LEAVE THEIR WAY TO SAY HELLO. I'VE HEARD THIS LIFE IS OVERRATED BUT I HOPE IT GETS BETTER AS WE GO. I'M HERE WITHOUT YOU BABY, BUT YOU'RE STILL ON MY LONELY MIND. I THINK ABOUT YOU BABY AND I DREAM ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME. I'M HERE WIHTOUT YOU BABY, BUT YOU'RE STILL WITH ME IN MY DREAMS. AND TONIGHT, GIRL, IT'S ONLY YOU AND MEEEE. EVERYTHING I KNOW AND ANYWHERE I GO IT GETS HARD BUT IT WON'T TAKE AWAY MY LOVE. AND WHEN THE LAST ONES FALL, WHEN IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE, IT GETS HARD BUT IT WON'T TAKE AWAY MY LOVE... haha. good memories. it's SO weird how that song kinda fits so nicely now... lmao. weird times. amazing times at homecoming last year!! le sigh. :(

WHY AM I BEING SO LONELY AND MISSING-LIKE NOW. I NEED TO STOP. I STARTED THINKING. I TOLD NOBODY TO LET ME THINK AGAIN. THEY LET ME. :( Life is lame when you think, lmfao.

Okay, I'm done for now. Jessica my love IMed me and I must talk to her so I don't think, lmao.

<3 lovers and friends love me

#— ask her if she wants to stay awhile ... <3 [23 Aug 2004|07:07am]
[ mood | nervous ]

she will be loved <3Collapse )

love me

# show and tell time for you and me, baby. %% [23 Aug 2004|12:35am]
[ mood | scared ]


AWWW. ANOTHER PICK ME UP. This is no offense to Tyler, just in case he happens to read this LJ thing again. Don't get mad at Shannon. SHE LOVES YOU TOO. LMAO. She's just being an amazing friend of mine. <3 ;D
SHANS6072: dude i have an idea what the letter could be about.
C dAWG xOx: hm?
SHANS6072: maybe he had anal sex with another guy (cause he "dropped" the soap there) and he was like "its not getting mad about"
SHANS6072: ((i said this in attempts to make you laugh....)
SHANS6072: and not to worry so much about it, cause your amazing and sweet and its just a letter. if he was to do something gay as in breaking up, asking for a break, it would just prove to you how immature of a person he would have to be to do it that way.
C dAWG xOx: awwwww
C dAWG xOx: THIS IS SUCHA PICK-ME-UP NIGHT. I SWEAR. I LOVE YOU. LMAO.
SHANS6072: i just dont want you to worry yourself over it and i want you to feel good cause you deserve to.
C dAWG xOx: :-D shannon you are the best. you rock.
C dAWG xOx: my bed.
SHANS6072: ohyeah baby;-)
C dAWG xOx: you are pushing a 7th update in my journal >:o
SHANS6072: ahh no, lmao!

lmfao. wow. good times.

<3 lovers and friends love me

++ jingle bells {kai lynn's fav. song!!} [23 Aug 2004|12:22am]
[ mood | scared ]


primer amor x: you updated FIVE times tonight.
C dAWG xOx: LMFAO
C dAWG xOx: stfu
C dAWG xOx: IF YOU SAY SOMETHING FUNNY LIKE THAT YOU'LL MAKE ME FUCKING UPDATE AGAIN. I'M BEING AN UPDATE WHORE.
primer amor x: LMAO i'm kidding, god. don't make me smack you
C dAWG xOx: cameron told me i was white trash at the restaurant tonight. then i asked vince if i was, and he said, "yeah, you are!! i mean, look at you... you're wearing a whitebeater.'' and i thought he said wifebeater, so i dismissed it. then i said, ''stephanie's wearing a wifebeater too," and he said, ''no. her's is black, so it's a black beater.'' lmfao, so i was like, ''THEY'RE CALLDE WIFE BEATERS, YOU DUMBASS. NOT WHITE BEATERS.'' hahahahahaha
primer amor x: LMFAO
primer amor x: AHAHAHA
primer amor x: DID YOU WRITE THAT IN YOUR UPDATE
primer amor x: because if not
C dAWG xOx: LMFAO
primer amor x: you definitely should
primer amor x: lmfal
primer amor x: o
primer amor x: *
C dAWG xOx: ROFL THANKS CRYS YOU STUPID ASSHAIR
primer amor x: Then after lunch he asked me for my name and I told him then was like, "Okay, well, could you burn me that CD, PLEASE?" so I said sure, lmao. He was SO adorable. I love him. I think he's gay, which makes him 3948390 x more cute.
primer amor x: YAY A GAY FRIEND FOR YOU
primer amor x: LMAO
C dAWG xOx: LMFAO.

...there goes the sixth time. lmao. and shannon also said more:
SHANS6072: yeah but i told him him and cameron were acting retarded about nothing last night, and that they were guys and only seeing there side...i think he actually listened, lmao.
SHANS6072: cause his reasons kept chaging
C dAWG xOx: aww... that's sooo good that he listened though!
SHANS6072: and changing and finally he said that. i think he just dosent want to see you get hurt again

wow, i feel sooo special. <33333333333333333

love me

<3 giving you my heart and soul. [23 Aug 2004|12:12am]
[ mood | scared ]


Holy shit, I'm updating for the 934839 time tonight, but this made me feel so unbelievably good. ;D
SHANS6072: it started offtalking about that stephanie was upset for some reason (cause your away message...and i was worried and talking to him about it) and then it lead to everything last night. and he was like "i wasnt mad at you, just pissed a little at chrissy" and i was like "can you expalin to me again why you were exactly mad at her" and he was like "cause she made she made it feel like we couldnt hang out w/ you guys" and i go "dude...would you want to go hang out with two couples?" and hes like "she just made it seem like we couldnt hang out with" and i got into the big discussion about it and he ended up like chaging his reason why he was mad like 3 times, and finally he was like "im just pissed that she would stay with someone like that who would hurt her like that because i care about her and stuff"
SHANS6072: i thought it was really sweet, haha.
C dAWG xOx: AWWW
C dAWG xOx: that makes me feeel SOOO special lmao someone cares about me :-D
C dAWG xOx: can i put that on my lj?
SHANS6072: yeah sure
SHANS6072: but i care too! lmoa.
SHANS6072: lmao*
C dAWG xOx: :-D YAY
C dAWG xOx: lMAO YAY!!!

<3 lovers and friends love me

i cry out... i reach out... don't walk away. [22 Aug 2004|11:08pm]
[ mood | scared ]

unreachableCollapse )

nothing newCollapse )

undiscovered (i LOVE this song. favorite song ever.)Collapse )

This is to a certain someone who shall remain nameless: For one minute, please, can you look around you and realize that you have so many things offered to you that you don't even realize? You take so many things you have for granted. You take the people that love you for granted. You walk over them and expect them to always forgive you with a simple, "I'm sorry for what I did." Well, that may work for now, but you need to know that people are finally getting over all this bullshit and starting to see how badly you truly are hurting them and yourself. I'm only writing this because I care about you and nobody else wants to even see you, let alone talk to you about this (even though they see/talk to you anyway)... we love you, but you need to quit fucking with us. Thanks. You know who you are. ;D

<3 lovers and friends love me

they say i'm stallin' ... don't wanna lose what i found. [22 Aug 2004|10:47pm]
[ mood | scared ]


Haha, some highlights of my night:

C dAWG xOx: hey pimp!!!
shaggydog1 2 0 0: whats up manny
C dAWG xOx: manny.
C dAWG xOx: what the HELL is a manny.
shaggydog1 2 0 0: manny fre fre fre erwe fresh

C dAWG xOx: that was SO funny when stephanie asked if what he had was a retainer LMAO
C dAWG xOx: you*
JazzyJ218: lol yea who would have a brown retainer and jsut infront of my lip
C dAWG xOx: ROFL i laughed so hard when she asked you that

And this is for Stephanie because I know she'll smile reading this --
ballsrus96: well im really fallin for her
ballsrus96: and i hope she is herself around me
C dAWG xOx: CAMERON YOU WERE SOOO CUTE TONIGHT WHEN WE GOT TO MY HOUSE AND YOU JUST RAN UP TO HER AND GAVE HER A HUGE HUG AND KISS THEN WHEN YOU WERE LEAVING YOU RAN BACK TO HER FOR JUST ONE MORE KISS AND YOU JUMPED ON HER. (@*()#*$()# OMFG THAT WAS THE SWEETEST THING EVER AND I HATE YOUR CUTENESS.
C dAWG xOx: that made her feel SOOOOO good, seriously
ballsrus96: good
ballsrus96: i really hope i make her happy
ballsrus96: cause she makes me happy
C dAWG xOx: awwww. you do cameron!! you make her REALLY happy!!!
ballsrus96: thank u chrissy u r a reassurance
ballsrus96: and thank u for the whole foot thing
ballsrus96: my feet are so soft its werid
C dAWG xOx: LMFAO i knew you'd like it!

Wow, amusement to a maximum. LMAO.

ballsrus96: excpet when u her an kailyn are all in the same room ................u guys are fuckin crazy and loud
C dAWG xOx: LMFAO we are not.
ballsrus96: yes u r
C dAWG xOx: we're fun. admit it.
ballsrus96: u three in the same room is trouble and 3 asprin
ballsrus96: fun
ballsrus96: true
C dAWG xOx: LMAO. hahahaha. we're fun kids.
ballsrus96: it can be
Stephanie, Kai Lynn, and I are the freaking shit.

WOW, I just realized I have to tell Tyler something uberly important that he would laugh his ass off at. Because he was right. For once. LMAO. Just kidding. He was right and I was wrong. :( He won. I lost. :( I suck now. I was on a roll with the winning thing, too! Damnit. Okay, well, I'll tell him if I remember and if he doesn't break up with me, lmao. HAHAHA. Paranoia at it's best.

And when you're crawling over broken glass to get to me, that is when I'll let you stay.

love me

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